the simplicity of life.

I would like a cup of whiskey over easy....

her pistol goes.

wet lips

hair nappy

clothes wrinkled

no calls
phone crappy

arms shiver
nervous
my heart shakes 


no brakes
my mind crashes


four A.M
old retired rappers blasting


fingers sticky
she yelling 
neighbors
getting Iffy


we had jelly
but no peanut butter
sticky
 
mary rubbed my stiffy
skateboard tricks
my room was empty


feel the vibration
too much is for the taking
she grabbed everything
and left me naked

black.memories

im never sober
so please accept my belligerence 
but all thoughts have texture, like the five senses you backpacked as a child.
in all the while, you look for it.
the right level of sanity.
where clouds and storms do exactly whats required.
how love is the right teaspoon for sickness
in those dreamy sea blue hours on your digital watch
you dreadfully watch
as times slips past listening ears
like her fingers and fingertips teasing
minute after minute
seconds before empty blessings
what a person-less shadow
in the stretch of morning, before breathing
i thought of you
the bottom of it
the singular vowels in your name
made life smaller when it was sad outside

im never sober 
so excuse my confessions of how i dreaded more
but floated inches away from too much
as these days get older 
so do you and that one seashore
there was always too much fear
& not enough risk
except when i questioned loves taste 
you then grabbed the reigns of my soul
& cried aloud like this.
we shared unusual bliss
like the feeling between you and the window when it rains
it pains me how you fed me the habits that make me now
in the mirror, i see what happened 
addicted to your scent
i chased after
running head first into the night, as you did
always inspired me
remembering when i was sober
 and the days you didnt have to be

somewhere.pleasant

lifted
 shifted
drifting
far far away where good vibes only residebesides the non high the non sky familiar.
 Not stuck but in front of my reality pushing the limits of this dimension
 the tension of hate itching me but the clouds are so potent my vision is blurry to demons
 simply easing my reason
 of why to get high on the eve of every season.
Hammock laying
brew slaying
knowledge dripping
it's time to settle let the mental handle.
 Dancing in circles w Mary on top of the kitchen mantel.
Free as can be w peace nd weed.
 I'll be the bad guy for taking advantage expanding
my channels my chakras enchanted
third eye in balance w my talents french inhale all of her like fragrance.
This life is ours for the taking embrace it
2 secs flat and it can be wasted by a sure shot from someone who's mind is tasteless.
2 fingers up rebel against the machine.
I wish for better things like love w strangers and burning of green.
 It seems I'm crazy but that's a fact.
I'm intact w my the inner me the soul that's dreams the things better than what seems.
Flying w stars touching galaxies making sure the moon smells my steam.
The nature of me no worldly things can put out what's best for me.
 Only material things I have is the gold my grams left behind bc her constant words was that what's in your mind.
I'm dim but I shine
when I adventure thru this life speaking freedom and love pure like red wine.
Feel my energy it's getting to me
I wanna share it w others the happiness that's been instilled in me.
She whispered cloud nine 4 planes later we were making some type of love at levels x5
one of my higher of highs is when I inhaled a ghost that stretched further than my spine.
Rubbed against my chest then elevated to my mind.
patient tunes and weed live free smoke trees and not to mention thank God it's 4:20

i the man.

i the man
say hi and bye
no matter if you
smile laugh frown or cry 
i the man
have no virtue
i have nothing
worth offering to you
i the man
only have words of wisdom
small as grains of sand
i the man
Lost the world
Long ago
i the man
failed to plan
but still smile
i the man
Only know what's real
Like how this society
is ruled by how i look
instead of how I feel
haven't showered in days
but i the man
has a clean mind
I'll give you history for ages
and hold my pride for a dime
i the man
hasn't ate
but I can tell what it takes
to put food on your plate
i the man knows love
i once held it like a jewel
grip so strong
The only thing that could
rip it away was a force that's upright
i the man
know no boundaries
because I have none
i slept once on the edge of a bridge
because I had no sense
but maybe if I laid there
i would find some
i the man pray to whoever
because whoever put me here
so whoever knows
my heart
so even though
i'm dead poor
whoever puts care in strangers heart
to help me w change here and there
i the man know life
i ventured with rough strife
i the man
Have nothing to offer but my mind
But for anything to help
I maybe can give you some cents for you time.

my confused thoughts.

i found something worth dying for again

maybe this time I'll win

begin anew and knock down my walls

failing to become famous overall

taller than my problems

but shorter than my actions

pressuring for reaction 

from people 

that's been attacking

actuality always creeps from beneath the night 

I'm eager to clear my sight

but my pupils are clouded

sounds of happiness from my front window

the people above me are aroused

while I'm down

I'm not sad

just not happy either 

I guess that's what Cobain said when he pulled the trigger

figures that being this lonely 

can hurt this bad

but if you ignore pain long enough

it'll ignore itself.

so hello white walls

carpet floor

that mysterious gust of wind

that dances underneath my front door

talk to me 

I'm all ears

I close my eyes

because I'm scared of fear

my tear buckets

are filled w nothing here

so I'm allowed to suffer 

my shirt is wrinkled in odd places

my shoes are covered in bad rubber 

from walking the middle of roads

hoping someone at least notice my

depression laying over me

cloaked but it's still a cover

i found something worth dying for again

but this time it really ain't no better

then walking outside

w a turtle neck

shorts on and flip flops

in below cold weather

pressure from TVs social networks

and crazy dreams

like tryna find the right path to my goals

when it's right under me

100 secrets in my head 

hiding from the light

delight in talking to a mirror

because it's the only person that might

send a smile back or care enough 

to push a hello out the crack of it's soul

colder than Everest

she was in control

I lost hope when I didn't see her glow

paralyzed 

no concentration 

sad w no hesitation 

i guess the nation

of sorrow swam my way

im generous

Yet full of lost anger

from things beyond danger

misplaced feelings falling from peaks 

of hollow angels 

couldn't control my angles 

thought I said the truth

but she took it like a stranger

fame or fortune 

I have neither

but a warm heart 

And dusty shoes

is what I breath for

simplicity in my lungs 

that's all I scream for

grab my hand 

kiss my forehead

Tell me it's ok

trouble seems much easier

when you whisper it that way 

maybe I'm beyond sentimental 

but they say I'm a rebel w no cause

when really I'm just being experimental

hope you see the shallow smile

that glides across my face

my eyes turn gold in the summer

only towards big butts and nature

my motives are too simple

my granny told me

that's why they hate ya

so I thank the trees leaves branches birds

And greens that I walk along 

to find peace 

that's better for me

because when i think deep thoughts of myself 

im convinced that I'm crazier than what seems.

four you.

i have intentions
to arrive in dimensions
far beyond my means
to see what lies for me
to see her eyes in the steam
of time
aligned w the beauty
that's dines in my mind
late nights
w innocent thoughts
and bad things
stimulating for hallucination
in Pandora dream
we lean on ledges
drifted in wedges
between okay
and going too far
your voice
is like that favorite song
I put on repeat in my car
your extraordinary
I hope that word carries
smiles lollipops and Tye dye gowns
For you
I hope the smell of flowers
applaud for you
My mind rushes for the thought of you
love is maybe going too strong
but if fighting continuously
until my soul bleeds
just so you
can experience what
the expression
feeling gold means
sign me up
im up front
no hesitation
because my dedication
for inauguration
into your heart
is something different
like salutation
Day by day
I'll rise the sun for you
push mountains
while the crown of it's aura sleeps and you view
it dream of you
holding hands
watching the wind dance
for you
im running for you
no deny in the mind
I can see the hands of time
Shake his hand
to agree
for you having more
time here
for me
to spoil you
W foolish things
like funny scented candles
and ruby rings
your destiny is next to me
you put the truth in we
i think of you astronomically
for any reason possibly
so my energy for you
sends you thoughts
of me
crazy
probably and maybe
for the L word
I'll go over anything to see you eve
believe and watch
your persona strive to thee
motionless at your existence
persistence i earn for your grace
looking in your eyes
I feel out of place
like any place
I'll jump for you
rub the moon for you
and make sure your the one
like
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